I Feel Growing Up (Spoiler Alert!)

I actually started writing this post in December 2010, but I hadn't finished it yet..
So just now I have time to continue this post..
I hope this one post can be a blessed for all of us.. :)

I finished watching Nodame Cantabile last year.. Hehe.. xp
There's a part in Nodame's last movie where Nodame finally become a kindergarten teacher, which she's been dreaming of before she falls in love with Sinichi Chiaki..
Since she met Chiaki, her dream has slightly displaced..
She sets a new life goal which is playing a piano concerto with Chiaki as the conductor..
She's been struggling so much for it, but in the end she finds out that she only feels the joy of playing piano when she follows her real passion (she even has composed a cheerful pieces for kids)..
My tears burst out seeing Nodame happily playing the piano in front of kindergarten kids.. T__T
After all crazy though thing she has went through~

I started to think about the bold word above..
I'm sure that all people have their own passion.. YES, WE DO..
It's just some (maybe most) people doesn't realize it yet..
They have to experience many things in life first before they notice their real passion..
Meanwhile, there are also other people who find their passion from the very beginning..
I myself belong to the first type..
My passion is about all things related to KIDS.. Yeah, similar to Nodame..
Why kids? You can read this..
Even so, I also love music, animal (especially dog), and I'm concern about the environment issue (as you can see at the right bar of this blog~)..

One of my college friend has asked me this question....
"Why didn't you choose teacher education or child psychology major?"
I couldn't answer her..
In my mind, I know that what I choose now is not my real passion..
But I NEVER EVER regret it and I'm really PROUD to be a biotechnology student.. :))
I believe the major I choose now is the BEST major He has provided for me..
It's already part of His beautiful plan..
Now I only pray to Him that things I've learned from college will be USEFUL for other (more specific, it will be applicable for my future job), but I also DON'T wanna miss the chance to pursue my real passion..
I wanna do what I love and love what I do..
Above all, I just want to PLEASE You in EVERYTHING I do..

Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters ~ Colossians 3: 23 (New International Version) 

This verse have been inspired me whenever I get tired of what I do and it WILL ALWAYS do..

Just let me stay in Your path, my sweet Lord..
Bend me, shape me as Your will..
Prepare me to the next level You have prepared..

For you who is interested with this "growing up thing ;p", I found a nice testimony titled "The Further Pursuit of Dreams, How Do I?" written by Scott Molgard in his middle 30..
Differentiate between passion and dream..
This guy has realized his real passion since he was young (read Scott's biography), then he chose a major which related to his passion, and suddenly thought about his "unclear" dream.. x)
Well, if you are asking about my dream right now, here what pops up in my mind:
- go to Disneyland by my own money
- adopt a child with my future husband
- get involved in child care/ animal rescue/ environmental organization
- have some golden retrievers
- have wood floor in my future house
- travel around the world
There are still many that not pop out.. xD
What I know to do with those dreams is to lay them down at His "foot" and wait for His feedback.. :)

My life is not perfect, but God's plan for me is. ~ Anonymous
(quoted from http://ladyofrecklessabandon.tumblr.com/)