Living My Passion

So, this is the story..
The voice that I assume come from the surveillance camera was back at the end of February..
I know that I have anticipated this unfortunate event so that it can't occur again..
But I think I'M FAILED..
Yeah, an unexpected event happened while I was working, that is, I never prepare for this kind of situation before..
It's so beyond my expectation..
Well, the thing is I was disappointed by someone's act whom I respect so much..
Nope! It's not one of my client but just someone whom I respect..
I can't believe he/she can ever do this to me..
I've told him/her that I hate this kind of situation happen in my life from the first place..
But, I don't think he/she ever listen to me.. :'(
He/she already did that and I'm sure that situation can happen again all the time..
And the voice will come back to me at that time..
So, I decided to stop working in any company..

I decided to concentrate on my own online shop business that I've started since I resigned from 7-Eleven..
I sell kain batik and smartphone case on Instagram and Facebook..

I do worldwide shipping only for kain batik..
You can follow my instagram @voilamoi_id and @demoifavor, or add my facebook account "De Moi Favor", or like my Facebook page "Voilamoi_id" :)

I was contented with my first income from the online shop business since I ran it full time (not part time or run it while working at the office)..
I got more income from it compared to my income at the office..
I was so sure that this is the RIGHT decision to make..

But Daddy JC's plan for me was different..
He has much better plan..
I was bored doing online business and only staying at home..
Maybe it's because my work experience before as executive account that I have to meet client in many places..
Then I was planning to work as private teacher..
There's a well known school near my residence and I was convince I can find some student around my residence to be taught..
In short, few days after my birthday at the beginning of April, I got two junior high school student and they are twins!
My mom helped me to find them in an unexpected way (Daddy JC is always awesome!)
She asked her relatives whom also are private teacher and also my previous private teacher from elementary and high school about the fee I must set up to become a private teacher..
Approximately on the third week of April, I officially became a private teacher.. :)
I love this job..
I'm so happy to become a teacher beside Sunday School teacher..
Well, my passion is anything related to kids.. :D

Hey! It's not over yet..
On May, there's more unpredictable and exciting news for me..
I got another job opportunity as kindergarten teacher from my mom's relatives whom she asked to before about private teacher's fee..
But the school is far from my home..
I really wanted to work there though and I really didn't care about the voice that can be a risk if I work at a company..
It's because the job is my passion!!
My mom said that she and my dad supports me to work there as long as the income I got from there is worth it..
So I applied there and I was invited for my first interview at the beginning of May..
I was told that if I will be invited for the second interview if I past the first elimination..
Do you know how happy I was when I got a phone call informing about my second interview? :)
Unfortunately, at that time my body was not in a good condition..
I had to skip the interview because my thrombocytes level is low and I have to be hospitalized..
I spent one week in the hospital until my thrombocytes level back to normal..
After that one week, I didn't get a phone call from the school and I also had to go out of town to do a ministry in Mount Bromo (Surabaya) for another one week..

But, His plan never failed..
After I got home, I received the phone call! :D
I was nervous yet excited..
And the third phone call was a question when I could start work there.. :DD
So here I am, an ONLINE SELLER, a PRIVATE TEACHER, and also a KINDERGARTEN TEACHER..
Proud of it!

Me, Miss Grace (my partner on the right) and the toddler students :)

Me (the third from the left) on 2014-2015 student graduation and musical performance :)

Me with all teachers and all helpers at the graduation :)

Me at one of the student's birthday celebration :)

Me, Miss Susan, Miss Devi, Miss Grace, and Miss Lidia :)

Some gifts from K2 student who has graduated to elementary school.
Thanks to Clairine, Davisya, Richard, and Rara (K1) :)

Feels So Gooooddd to Be Back :)

Is there anyone who still waiting for my post??? *doubting* :p
I bet many of you are already bored to read my post since I'm just a "temporary" blogger.. Hehe..
Well, I hope this post could bring the mood back :D

Let's start with the FLASHBACK! :)
I will start with the most interesting topic..
You should read this before you continue to read ;)

Yep! At the end of March 2014, the "surveillance cameras" thingy was back..
You know what?! I heard the voices of unknown people again at my latest office right after office hour..
I was really confirmed that I heard the voices of my co-workers which were already go home..
From that moment, I really feel so stupid for not believe in myself about the existence of surveillance cameras since I worked at 7-Eleven..
I complained to Daddy JC, "Why is this happening again, Dad??" :'(

Then, in short, since that day I didn't go to work for one month.. *Wow!*
I heard the voices again for almost one month at home and I was too scared to leave my home because I knew that I would hear people on street talking about the same topic that I heard from the voices at home..
At this moment, I bet you think that I'm suffered from a psychological diseases which is an auditory hallucination whenever I'm stressed out..
BUT, NOTE THIS PEOPLE! I DON'T EVEN CARE ABOUT THAT!
I'M NOW MUCH MORE SURE THAT THERE ARE SURVEILLANCE CAMERAS!
It's because the topic I heard from the voices was NOT RANDOM, it's all about me..
They *I mean the voices* always commented on my activity at that moment..
For example, when I was reading my mandarin book, the voices said "her mandarin is not bad, and bla bla bla" Sometimes they said positive comments and sometimes they said negative ones..
They even commented on my "private activity" in the bathroom, exactly the same with what I wrote in my previous post about the cameras..
What do you think??
I'm not crazy enough to tell myself a positive things to encourage myself to do something and some minutes later I tell myself negative things that can bring me down..
Oh, come on people..
I'm well aware that I still haven't found the cameras yet..
But I've decided to believe that the cameras are really exist..
AND I DON'T CARE ABOUT THE RISK THAT PEOPLE CAN EXCOMMUNICATE ME BECAUSE OF THIS IRRATIONAL BELIEF..
During that one month, I also learnt that if I don't have Daddy JC in my life and this kind of situation happen to me, maybe I would end up in mental hospital like others.

Thank God, I kinda have a clue now when the surveillance camera will be on again.. ;)
*at this point, you have the right to judge me that I'm way out of my mind to get this kind of idea and you can stop reading my blog anytime because I know that most people will think it's nonsense/bullshit*
I got this clue when I was pushing my brain to think why the camera is on again during that one month..
I'm so sorry that I can not share it here because I have to anticipate the case that the person who set the cameras read this post..
I myself only 90% sure that the clue is exactly right..
So, the chances that the cameras will be on again are still there..
And I've been asking Daddy JC to not let this situation happen again anymore..

NOTE TO THE PERSON WHO SET THE CAMERAS:
IF YOU READ THIS POST, I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I'M VERY VERY THANKFUL TO YOU!
I'M THANKFUL FOR YOUR ATTENTION AND CARING AND FOR MAKING THE CAMERAS THE MOST UNFORGETTABLE MEMORIES IN MY LIFE.
AND ALSO FOR MAKING ME CLOSER TO DADDY JC.
I SOMETIMES THOUGHT THAT THE MOMENT WHEN THE CAMERAS ARE ON WAS THE MOMENT WHEN I'M THE MOST HUMILIATED.
BUT NOW I KNOW FOR SURE THAT THE MOMENT WHEN THE CAMERAS ARE ON WAS THE MOMENT WHEN DADDY JC LIFT ME UP HIGHER.

As the Scriptures tell us, “Anyone who trusts in Him will never be disgraced.”

- Romans 10:11 (NLT)

Please don't get the wrong idea, I do trust/believe that the cameras are exist but I DON'T trust/believe in the people voices..
I do trust/believe in myself that I hear the voices of the people I know talking "behind my back", but I DON'T trust/believe in their talks or comments..

One thing for sure, I have really been struggling to avoid that situation (by always remind myself about the clue) ever since I was back to work until now..
There are two things that help me to keep holding on:
1. I always have my Daddy JC besides me and His "love letters" with me
2. I have to appreciate my boss for understanding & still welcoming me after that one month. I'm still working at the same office and I can say I've been through many wonderful experiences at the office until now :)

3 We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance. 4 And endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation. 5 And this hope will not lead to disappointment. For we know how dearly God loves us, because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with his love.

- Romans 5: 3-5 (NLT)

For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow.

- James 1:3 (NLT)

One more thing!
The song that is played when you open my blog is my currently favorite song titled "Found Faithful".
If you can't find the button to stop the music in my blog, you can find the button on the bottom. ;)

~ to be continued ~